Death & Grief

I’m overspending my money for my birthday and I’m sad I had to cancel my CD from Amazon really gutted but however I got a CD hopefully the chime card works on my other two purchases.

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I’m feeling frustrated with life lately I’m so scared that i won’t get this job offers.

Everyday is a gift 🎁

I’m thinking of those ppl that need the hand or someone from their family to help them cuz we tend to bet on it first, so do I, and when they turn away or say no, then those ppl just stay were they are and I think they should realize the power they actually have and hold over changing someone’s life just by taking them in. Which I’m not sure if my relatives realize, so I’ll def mention that. Also witnessing how someone went blank on socials cuz of parents, sure, some relatives can snitch and be difficult, we truly can’t trust anybody and be sure 100%, but still, knowing those that are worthy to try with is a goal🐙🙏🏻 (there was a time where my relatives thought it can’t be “that” bad) but this year, I confirmed my truth. It’s very important that they’re on our side, just like professionals, everyone MUST be.

Y’all gotta be strong this ain’t hard this is real❤️🐙😭 going to counselor this Monday, then I’ll see if grandma could be better or if she’s still sick and somehow wait the heat (plus period ah period nooo) and then I’d just go cuz I need lil more to finish the letter for my relatives. To finally live when my memory of everything is fading away is what NEEDS to be SAVED. I’m all for it😭🐙✨ let’s gooooo

I’m feeling frustrated 😣

Back inside y’all. Where I would be without my fav show, airing now💙 Everytime they mock and yell and etc, they sank a new low in my eyes, but if it’s towards someone who’s sick, it’s the lowest cuz it makes me remember all times I didn’t get help from them and now it’s uncle again… octopus is my lifeline but it’s time to make it outta here fr fr🐙😩

When you’re unwell but you can’t sleep cuz narc fam is ultra loud so you’re forced going to the outside to the heat (well I’m by the shade or whatever we call it) but hearing how uncle is getting “nothing” instead of support is crazy + they’re laughing at him and what I’m supposed to do? Being stuck in this awful day for sure😭😩 I’m tired y’all.

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Yesterday (Saturday) my birthday was a massive disappointment my old roommate had an upset stomach then my friend had to work from 12:00pm-10:00pm then my secret admirer told me that he had to work at his uncle’s shop then band stuff it was the worse birthday I had ever.😔

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I refuse to eat old lunch (the times of sacrificing are gone) so waiting until 4pm it is. Besides 🐙🩷 pieuvre keeps me company, with or without food.

What turns you on total night owl or extreme refuser of sleep is simply family that sleeps when you don’t. This is the peace we live for. Almost finishing!!✨ Vid is now 3:40 and writing down everything to not keep it last minute. Relatives should seriously take us out. 🐙💛💔✨(it’s 7:23am now)

Yesterday (Friday) I had a rough day I sat in my room crying 😭 my eyes I have some negative thoughts about things I told my friends and my secret admirer that I need space.

I want to stress ENOUGH that using AI for summarization, visual aids turns 3- 5 min work into 20-30 minutes and even hours! I stopped using it for edits completely. Gave it proper command and Ai does nonsense over and over. When you can’t afford losing any time, every day turned into lost hour because I thought Ai would do it immediately. Instead of saving time, I got everything delayed. Happier without Ai and I don’t trust it no more. It really is dumb, trust me. I’m using it for every subject, almost every lesson whatever detail I don’t understand or need help incorporate photos to certain projects, it’s horrible. Definitely not a helper. And I’m taking about multiple models in hopes one will do it right, I had to switch to get final result after so much time!! Never again. You can still do it yourself like before. Don’t blindly trust Ai to make your work easier. Save yourself time before you’ll get disappointed.

Redefining the Labyrinth: From Slaying to Listening 🌀 In the ancient myths, the Labyrinth was a place of confusion and fear, built to hide away the Minotaur—a creature seen only as a monster to be defeated. We are taught that the hero’s job is to enter the maze, find the beast, and slay it. But when we talk about the landscape of trauma, the Labyrinth isn’t a prison—it’s the complex, winding path of our own survival. And the Minotaur? That isn't a monster. It is a metaphor for the hidden trauma, the raw pain, and the overwhelming memories we were forced to bury deep in the dark just to keep going. For many of us, "healing" has felt like a battle. We think we have to be "warriors" who finally kill off the parts of us that feel "broken" or "monstrous." At The Purple Phoenix Collective, we propose a different way. The task isn't to slay the Minotaur. The task is to walk into the center of that maze, set down the sword, and finally meet that "beast" with compassion. Instead of trying to eliminate the pain, we ask it a simple, life-changing question: “What do you need?” When we stop trying to kill the parts of ourselves that have suffered, we begin to realize they were never monsters at all—they were just guardians of a story that was waiting for a safe place to be told. You don't have to be a slayer. You just have to be a witness. Rise with us. 💜🔥