Sorry to hear that life is being so hard 😞 😔 try to keep ur chin up

Hi Aslan, I’m sorry to hear you’re having such a hard time. It sounds like you really have a lot going on. But it’s lovely how you can appreciate the good parts too like that bus driver. There is no easy answer, the only thing I can say is keep going, keep trying to focus on the good that’s happening and let the bad just be. We can’t control what happens in life but we can control how we react to it. Seek help from friends, family or the Samaritans. Try and join communities that will help keep your spirits up. And practice gratitude. I appreciate it might feel that there little to be grateful for but you are alive and as long as you are alive, anything is possible. Practice today the changes you wish to see tomorrow and then step by step walk towards change. Nothing lasts forever, even the hard times. and you are brave and strong 💪

I try, I rly believe I do. I smile at ppl, compliment them when I like smthing, comfort others when I can, still try to have a good mindset like that people are inherently kind—even when they can’t be, like when 3 buses didn’t stop for me. Apparently it’s common in poor neighborhoods. A bus driver, who was concerned after I told her I’d been there from 9-1, circled back around to check on me, and actually changed her route to get me to my finals! A very beautiful story btw, I have many more like it, and love talking about them, if ppl want to hear that! But I actually wake up calling for my cat's name. (Long story short, I went from a very much needed and loved service dog to a self proclaimed emotional support cat with anxiety, haha.) I unfortunately had to leave him behind. He was very cuddly. We slept together every night, like in my arms the entire night except getting up to get food and stuff. We woke up together and did all of our home routines together. I also love talking about him, he’s so weird! Ex: loves baths, loves walks, found out because he snuck outside for like… 2 mins then got scared by a bird and ran inside. My poor, orange, broken bby xD Can someone please offer me advice? I’ll be grateful for anything you say. Thank you so much for taking the time to read everything :) 🌿☁️💕