In so Sorry to hear this Charlene, this is an incredibly difficult & raw time for you. I am sending you strength, love and prayers. Grief takes time & there is no one way to grieve. The important thing is to let yourself feel it, be compassionate with yourself and try to surround yourself with people who can help you through this very difficult time ❤️Also, you can try asking the AI here on advice on grieving & it should give lots of practical assistance, it really helped give me tools when I was grieving.