As a mother myself, I can say that we do the best we can, with what we have, and you are no exception. The fact that you are writing this shows what a conscientious & caring mother you are. You have experienced the unimaginable that life has to throw at a parent, allow yourself to grieve for as long as you need to and whenever you need to. Emma is correct, give yourself the compassion you deserve and keep breathing. Take one breathe a time. Be here with yourself and hug yourself so tightly. Keep breathing one day at a time. My heart is with you ❤️

From what I hear from others in a similar situation, I’m sure one ‘gets passed it’, they just learn to live with it eventually. This is your journey and your grief and no one can tell you when or how you should be dealing with it or ‘get passed it’, alls I’m trying to say is to remember that you are a grieving mother in pain and to give yourself some compassion and love ❤️

I am so, so sorry for your loss 💔 this is heart breaking to read and I will not pretend to understand your situation, I can only imagine 💔 but I can see that You are understandably in pain, and burdening yourself with guilt will neither change the situation or help you. Please, as difficult as it may feel, please give yourself grace for whatever you feel you did or didn’t do. You are a grieving mother. You have every right to grieve and feel the pain, anger and anything else you maybe feeling, but what I’m trying to say is, right now you need more than ever, compassion and love. Is there anyone that can be there for you now to make you hot drinks and just sit with you? Or Maybe you can reach out to a bereavement counselor? Sending you my love and prayers ❤️