I really want to cry. Lately, I haven't been able to cry even though I feel so stressed. I want to be a better person. I want to be someone who is there for other people, but I don't know what to do... I wake up and wonder why I am not sleeping. I wake up and already decide that the day will not be worth opening my eyes for. I want badly to be understood but can not exert the energy to explain myself, or try to understand myself. I want to be seen by somebody for who I really am. But I'm scared that they will hate what they see. I am a coward, and I don't know what to do. I'm tired of reassuring myself. I'm tired of only thinking about myself. I am so tired of me. I want someone to tell me everything will be okay. I want to know that tommorow is worth waking up for. I want to be myself again. Everything might not be okay. But I can still try to continue, and it's enough for now. It will be okay as long as I'm still me. This might not help anyone, but I just had to find myself again, and sort out my feelings