God, if the tables won't turn, then give me strength instead. strength to carry all this pain without losing myself. give me peace of mind when everything feels too heavy, and a kind of happiness that is real. give me a soft place to land where i can finally rest without feeling overwhelmed. let me smile without hiding the ache in my heart. and if the world refuses to be gentle with me, then shape me into someone who can endure it, someone who won't give up even when it hurts. when i feel like giving up, remind me why i started, and give me the courage to keep going.