God, if i was meant to be alone, then please take away my desire to be loved, because it hurts to hope for something i might never have. it hurts to watch others be chosen while i keep wondering what that feels like. i get tired of pretending that being alone doesn't bother me. if being alone is truly meant for me, then please take away this longing in my heart, because there is an ache in waiting for love that might never come.