Today I talked with my quite toxic "ex-friend" who did me really dirty and now when I ended our friendship is constantly trying to win my attention back. We're in the same class so you can imagine how that goes.. But today I spoke to him. I wanted to know if he feels sorry/shameful, wanted to listen to whatever he thinks of all this or if he is trying to solve the problem with acts, rather than conversation alone. No, no he doesn't. Or at least he doesn't want me to think that. He's too proud, too self centred and too scared to be vulnerable with emotions and admitting feeling loss. He played it cool and as a joke, convincing me he's not acting weird around me at all. I think it's a shame that he just does that. I feel sorry for him. I would love for him to be honest and happy without validation of others. At least I'm proud of myself for speaking loud for myself and trying to make peace between us. I will have to ignore him for as long as he lies to me and doesn't change I guess 😅. I really hope this doesn't sound just like a vent, because I'm not angry, I'm just disappointed and kinda weird about it. I just wish people could understand each other more sometimes.