hello everyone i recently made a post here and just wanted to thank everyone for their support no one really has ever been there for me or if they have ive shoved them away ive been trying for a few days to go on walks meet my friends socialise a bit which is also a bit difficult to do as my exams are on and i just am never motivated enough i lost the only person who was there for me early last year in june and he had severe depression but told no one about it and he took his own life he was my best friend, my bands guitarist and overall he was a brother and i just dont think i can ever find someone like him in my life i think im just incapable of having another best friend since then ive never felt like myself and ive hurt myself ive hurt others and it just doesn't seem to get better and i try to cry but im just not able to i dont know why thank you all for the support it really meant so much to me but i dont think anyone can help me at this point and the more i try to seek help i just become a burden so this is probably going to be my last post here as i dont want to seem like a burden or an attention seeker because whenever i talk about this people just make me out to be one. thank you once again.