you seem pretty avoidant for someone so desperate for love. you crave it, think about it, dream about it, but the moment it gets real, you start to detach. you keep people at a distance, act unbothered, and pretend you don't need anyone. but deep down, you do. you want someone to stay, to understand you, to choose you without hesitation. you're just scared they won't. scared they'll leave once they see all of you. so you leave first, or you build walls so high no one can reach you. you call it protecting your peace, but sometimes it's just fear dressed up as control.