Stop comparing yourself to how you were before that trauma happened or before your mental health went downhill. It's easy to look back on those days full of guilt and shame as you remember how "fit," "disciplined," or "productive" you used to be. Listen, you've gone through some hard shit over the past several years. It's not that you let yourself go. It's just that your priorities have changed. You need more grace now. More peace. More ease. Your time to strive, grind, and achieve will come again but, for now, love on and treat yourself with the gentleness your mind and body are craving.