i owe myself an apology for all the times i abandoned myself just to keep other people comfortable. for lowering my standards, begging for the bare minimum, and staying loyal to people who could not even give me honesty. i gave too many chances because my heart always hoped people would become better. i kept forgiving things that broke me because i loved deeply and cared too much. i lost sleep thinking about people who probably slept peacefully after hurting me. and the hardest part is realizing how many times i put others first while forgetting to choose myself.