Be patient with yourself while you are learning how to choose yourself without feeling all the guilt that comes with it. Even if it's taking a while, you should be so proud of yourself for how far you have come and how much you have grown. Putting yourself first isnt the easiest thing to do, especially when it teels so foreign, but there are times where it is so necessary, and with practice, the guitt you feel when you put yourself first will fade and you'll be so proud of yourself for honoring yourself. You will see progress in yourself that you never thought was possible and no one will hold it against you (despite what your anxiety has led you to believe in the past).