if i was meant to be alone, then please take away my desire to be loved. because it hurts so bad to crave something that never comes, to keep hoping that i've been chosen. i'm tired of being a giver, of giving love that isn't returned, of pretending i'm okay with being the one who always chases and begs just to be loved. i just want peace, not this constant ache of wanting to be chosen. if loneliness is my destiny, then at least make it lighter.