yes, i lied. i also want to receive "just because" flowers. i want to be taken on dates that i didn't plan. i want to experience being surprised on my birthday, or to receive letters telling me how much you love me. i want to be photographed not because i asked for it, but because you wanted to. i want to see pictures of us on your socials, not for attention, but because i want to feel that you're still proud to have me. i'm done pretending i don't care about these things. because deep down, it's not really about the flowers, the dates, or the photos. it's about knowing i am wanted without having to beg for it. so yes, i lied. the truth is, i also want to be loved proudly and loudly.