you never apologized for hurting me, but i apologized so many times for being bothered by it. i kept saying sorry for the pain you caused, like my feelings were the problem. i tried to stay calm, tried to understand, and tried to make peace even when i was the one hurting, but you acted like my pain was too loud, like i was asking for too much. it's sad how i learned to blame myself for things that were never my fault. i'm finally seeing it now, and i'm finally learning that i can heal even without the apology i deserved.