I am so fed up with people who repeat the same crap and then shamelessly explain it again and again like it's a fresh incident. At some point, explanations stop sounding sincere and start sounding rehearsed. You are too old to keep narrating why you did what you clearly chose to do. You're aware of it. I'm aware of it. So who exactly are you trying to convince? Me, or the version of yourself you're desperately protecting? These aren't mistakes anymore, they're patterns. And patterns reveal character. Call it behavior, call it personality, call it nature, but don't call it an accident. So what's with all the dramatic justifications and emotional speeches afterward? If you're hiding your true self, it's not working. Because as intelligent and calculated as you think you look, it's honestly giving low budget villain with a script written in crayon.