i genuinely lost my spark. i don't recognize who i am anymore. i barely remember the last time my lips smiled so wide or the loudness of my laugh. i don't even know what happened to me. i used to have so much energy. i used to get excited about little things. i used to wake up with hope and look forward to tomorrow. now, most days feel the same. i'm just trying to survive. somewhere along the way, the weight of everything became too much. i miss the person i used to be. i miss the version of me that felt truly alive.