i want to be more like you. you love me like it's the most natural and special thing in the world. you love me gently, softly, with so much care. i would start overthinking, but you always remind me that it's just in my head. you ask me not to assume what you'd say or feel because it only makes my thoughts worse. you understand me so gently, and your patience feels like something i don't deserve, but you give it anyway. you remind me that i'm deserving of affection, of good things, even when my thoughts turn against me. but sometimes i get worried that i might being too much of a burden to you. and i know you'd tell me i'm not, that i've never been a bother, but still, i want to be better. not just for you, but for myself. i want you to have the version of me that i'm proud of. and i know i say this a lot, that i'm sorry you had to see me at my worst, but you loved me anyway. maybe that's exactly why i want to become someone who reflects the same softness you've given me. your love makes me want to grow into someone who finally believes they deserve the kind of care you give so freely.