probably needed a hug, but i stayed quiet, wiped my own tears and kept moving like i was fine the whole time. i've gotten so used to handling everything on my own, even the heavy feelings i don't talk about. i laugh when i'm hurting, i say i'm okay when i'm not, and i keep going because i don't want to bother anyone. but sometimes i wish someone would notice without me saying a word. sometimes i wish someone would just hold me and say it's okay. but instead, i stay quiet, fix myself, and keep pretending i'm fine, even when i'm not okay at all inside.