The best way to 'get your spark' back is burning everything down. You have to reset your life. You have to reset your mind. You have to let go of everything you were, everything you had, every lie you told yourself. Then, something else can take their place. Only a few do it. They let go of years and decades, wins and failures, skills and pride- to go somewhere new. It's hard, but simple. You can restart any time you want. Any time you have the strength. There's no feeling like it. Beauty starts with a blank slate. And a blank slate starts with the fiery destruction of your entire existence. Eventually, that inferno turns from pain to warmth. You sit there for a while. Basking in it. Then, The Idea hits you And you're never the same again.