i once dreamed of marrying someone, but now i can't even see myself as someone's girlfriend anymore. maybe it's because of everything i went through. maybe it's the way people changed on me, or how love started to feel more like a burden than comfort. i got tired of giving my all and getting half-hearted effort back. so now i'm choosing myself first. i'm learning to feel whole without needing someone beside me. maybe one day i'll believe in love again, but for now, i'm okay with growing alone. i'm okay with taking my time to heal and find myself again.