I used to pretend that I was always okay so that no one would ever worry about me. I don't want to bother anyone around me, so | always show them that there is nothing wrong with me. But every time I'm alone in my room, that's where my tears start streaming down my face. My heart will start pounding with pain, and my surroundings will be filled with sadness. I am not really okay. I am barely surviving every day, yet I still pretend that I am happy. I used to pretend that I was not having a hard time with myself, but now I think I can no longer hold back all my pain. I just want to scream and tell the world how hurt 1 am. I want to tell everyone that I've been bearing this for a long time. I am slowly dying inside. I am falling apart every night, and no one ever notices it. I used to pretend that I was a strong person, but now I feel like I am just so tired of everything.