they think i'm angry when i use high tone, but my real anger is when i'm silent. because when i still speak, it means i still care enough to try. it means i still hope things can change and be fixed. i still want to be understood. but when i become quiet, something inside me has already changed, and that silence is not peace, it is disappointment i no longer know how to explain. it is pain that has gone too deep for words. and once i reach that point, i am no longer fighting. i am simply learning how to let go for good.