i slowly lose interest every time i feel ignored. i lose interest every time you act nonchalant, when you don't give me the same effort back. i lose interest every time my messages sit there for hours, when it takes you too long to reply, like i'm the only one trying to keep the conversation alive. i lose interest when your actions don't match your words, when i have to guess if you still want me. and i keep losing interest when your focus is on everything except me, when your heart feels far, when i start feeling invisible. i lose interest slowly, quietly, piece by piece. until one day, i'm already gone in my heart, even if i never actually said goodbye.