perhaps i was meant to be alone. like i'm not fit for any human relationship, like no matter how hard i try, i never really belong anywhere. maybe i just exist to be in solitude, to sit with my own thoughts and carry everything on my own, learning how to be okay even when no one stays. but some days, it still hurts, because deep inside, i don't want to be alone. i just want someone who chooses me without making me feel like i'm too much or not enough. and maybe i'm not meant to be alone forever, maybe i'm just learning how to choose myself first.