i am so much better now when i come across something inconvenient, i realize i am handling things much better now. whenever something like this happened before, i would resort to different kinds of unhealthy things. i would self-loathe, self-blame, and say bad things to myself for not being able to do something. i get so overwhelmed easily that i would find a hole i could crawl into and just shut everybody out instead of confronting what is in front of me. i avoid everyone, but i also cannot stand being with myself, knowing how much i always try to point everything at myself for being at fault. i avoid conflict because it intimidates me. pushing everything aside, punishing myself because i think i deserve everything bad that's happening, and i brought it upon myself. now i see it clearly. i haven't even noticed how different i am from the girl i once was before. there are parts of me that are really hard to walk away from, but i am learning to be patient and forgiving with myself. i always remind myself of the things that are important, and i try to face the things that i can control instead of carrying everything on my back. i am important too, something that i might not have realized before