i wish i didn't have to stay busy just to feel okay. i wish i could sit in silence without feeling like something's missing. sometimes i fill my days with work, noise, or people just so i don't have to face the quiet. because when it's quiet, my thoughts get too loud. i start to feel everything i tried to ignore. i tell myself i'm fine, that i'm just tired, but deep down i know i'm trying not to feel empty. i wish peace came easily, that i didn't have to keep myself distracted just to feel fine. i wish i could rest without feeling guilty, and slow down without feeling lost. maybe one day the silence won't hurt as much. maybe one day being alone will finally feel like peace, not loneliness. maybe one day, i won't have to keep myself so busy just to be okay.