i miss my spark. i try to act normal while losing my spark in almost everything. i try to pretend like i'm still okay, like nothing has changed, but deep inside i feel exhausted and empty. the things that used to make me happy don't feel the same anymore, and even the smallest tasks feel so hard. but i still show up, i still laugh, though it's not real most of the time. I'm just trying to survive each day without letting anyone see how much i'm struggling.