it's a strange kind of pain, being pushed past your limits, then blamed for reacting like a human. somehow, the moment i speak up, i become the one at fault. I'm expected to stay silent, to swallow everything, while their actions are always forgiven or overlooked. I'm not given space to feel or even explain myself. whatever i say is twisted into something wrong, like i don't even deserve basic understanding. after being shut down so many times, i started doubting my own feelings, wondering why people are allowed to provoke me, but when i react, i will be the one seen as a villain just for feeling human emotions. even if it hurts, i have no choice but to accept the role they've placed on me. that everything i say is somehow a mistake, even if i never meant to be seen that way.