Why does it feel so heavy again lately? I keep trying to distract myseli just so I can escape irom this sadness, but it seems to me like I'm drowning deeper in despair. I wish I could express the right words for this kind of feeling, but I guess no words can ever describe it. Even it I say, I teel so empty, or sometimes I feel lonely, it's just not enough. It weighs down my heart and soul. I wish I could figure out how to be strong in this situation. Because the truth is, most of the time, I feel like giving up on myself. Sometimes, I wish I could just disáppear. Sometimes, I'm so tired of everything that I think about running away. Is there any way to remain strong while I'm watching myself fall apart? People say that there are so many reasons to be happy, but here I am, confused about what they say. Because sadness has stayed way too long in my heart, I can no longer remember what it feels like to be happy.