trying to stay okay some days i do my best just to look okay. i smile, i show up, i keep moving, even when everything feels heavy. people think i'm fine because i know how to act like i am, but they don't see the battles i fight inside. i carry things quietly, i hold myself together even when i'm close to breaking, because i know i need to, else i won't survive. i try to stay strong, even when my strength feels thin, even when my knees feel like they're about to give out from holding everything in. i try to stay soft, even when life feels rough, even when the world feels like it's about to crumble upon me. i'm tired, i'm overwhelmed, but i'm still trying. and maybe that's enough for today, this is enough for today.