Don't be hard on yourself, you're trying your best and that is more than good enough. Everything occurs the way it is meant to for you to deal with, and you only get given what you can handle. Keep learning, healing, growing, and taking that desired action when needed. Keep riding those highly energetic waves and each day find that balance. It's all part of your journey. Trust in the power of Divine right time and trust your journey even more. All is well!