i try to be better, but it only gets worse. does anyone know this feeling? the feeling of trying so hard to be better, only to end up feeling worse? i keep pushing myself, hoping that one day, things will change. but they don't. my eyes are tired, drained from crying too much, and now, no more tears come out. it's like i've emptied myself, but the sadness never leaves. all i ever wanted was to be good, to be better, to be seen, to be accepted. i tried. i really did. but no matter how much i tried, it was never enough. i was never enough. and the saddest part? it keeps getting worse.