Just stop. Stop putting in all the effort, all the energy, all that you have. You're trying to fix a relationship that ended a long time ago — you just refused to admit it. Deep down, you knew it was over, but letting go felt harder than holding on. So you kept destroying yourself, calling it love, when it was really just fear of being alone. They've already moved on, probably laughing in someone else's company right now. And here you are, still proving loyalty to someone who stopped deserving it. You're not being loyal anymore - you're just looking foolish. Do yourself a favour and walk away while there's still something left in you. Because if you don't, you'll lose yourself trying to keep what's already gone.