Sometimes, you have to stop trying to make sense of why things happened the way they did. It's okay if it hurts deeply. It's okay if you can't see the end right now. Sometimes, there won't be any explanation or justification. Seeking answers will only pull you into a downward spiral. Let it be. You need to accept things as they are, to stop trying to control what you can't, to stop resisting it. Your pain is valid. Whatever the outcome might be, whatever lesson you might learn, nothing will make it any less hurtful. If you want to heal, sit with your pain. Acknowledge where it comes from. Hold yourself gently. Take it one minute at a time. You won't feel this way forever. Let that feeling be here. This is how you let it go. This is how you heal.