maybe the reason we feel birthday blues is because, deep down, we secretly hope the day will feel special or a little different from the rest. we expect a kind of extra care, even if we don't say it out loud. but when the day finally comes and nothing really changes, it feels like any other normal day. the same routines, the same silence, the same people who don't show up the way we hoped. and maybe that's why birthdays feel heavy sometimes, not because anything went wrong, but because we wished for a little more than what we got.