"you didn't deserve that." no, i did. i had no self respect and knew i needed to leave but i wanted it to be him so bad. i stayed when i should have walked away. i knew deep down it wasn't right, but i kept hoping he would change. i ignored the signs, the late replies, the cold tone, the way i felt small around him. i told myself love meant being patient. i told myself this pain was normal. i wanted it to be him so bad that i forgot to choose myself. now i see it clearly. i didn't deserve the hurt, but i allowed it. and that's the part i had to face.