The feeling of not belonging somewhere is one of the deepest, sharpest pains a person can experience. What's even worse is knowing you don't belong there and still being forced to stay because life hasn't given you another option yet. You stay in that space, feeling trapped, because there's nowhere safer, kinder, or more accepting waiting for you outside. You feel your potential fading, your spark dimming, your identity disappearing day by day. It's heartbreaking realizing the people you were born to aren't actually your people. It destroys you when the ones you trusted turn out to be liars hiding behind masks. You end up surviving by fantasizing that life could've been if real love existed. But hope isn't gone-you just need to give yourself one honest chance to rebuild. Do what makes you happy; nothing can be worse than what you're enduring now.