i thought i was finally okay because i hadn't cried in days. but it turns out i was just busy. i didn't have time to sit with my feelings or really think about what was hurting me. so when everything finally slowed down, all the emotions i had been pushing away came back. the pain never actually left, it was just quiet for a while. i wasn't healed, i was just distracted. staying busy felt easier than facing what i felt. but healing takes time. some days are better than others, and that's okay. i just need to be gentle with myself and give my heart the time it needs to heal.