Our feelings may not always be decodable to us. Sometimes, they persist in our mind like a puzzle that we cannot understand. It's frustrating when that happens. When you suddenly find yourself feeling annoyed without reason, or sad when nothing bad has occurred. Sometimes, when such feelings take over us, it could be a result of all the memories we've tried to suppress deep inside of us. It could be the pain we haven't acknowledged or experiences we've tried to forget without dealing with them first. I know it's tough to face the bad that happens to you, but to heal and move on, it's what you have to do. You have to put aside your fears and confront what you have been trying to escape for so long. Only then will you find the reasons behind your emotions. Only then will you grow to understand yourself more intimately.