when i'm mad from my perspective but i can also see their perspective. so now i'm carrying double the emotional weight and being eaten away by my anger and empathy. it feels like i have to understand everything while still hurting inside. i try to calm myself down, telling myself maybe they didn't mean it that way, maybe there's more to the story. but that doesn't erase how i feel. it just makes it harder to stay angry and harder to fully forgive. i end up stuck in between, trying to be kind while quietly breaking inside.