the weight of being misunderstood sometimes i catch myself explaining more than i should, not because i want to talk more, but because I'm scared of being misunderstood. i replay conversations in my head a million times, checking if i said something wrong or if i could've worded things differently. i'm afraid of delivering a message unclearly, worried it might change things in a way i can't take back. i don't want to be seen in a way that isn't me, i just want my intentions to be consistent with who i am and to make sure i said what i truly meant. i just want to be understood, without having to overexplain. i want my words to stay true to me, and my intentions to be seen for what they are. but even then, i remind myself that even if i'm misunderstood, at the end of the day, at least i know i'm honest with myself.