he's not a bad person, he just doesn't know how to love me right. i can see how kind he is to other people. he helps when someone needs him, checks on his friends, and makes people feel cared for. but with me, it always felt different. taking hours to reply while being active online. making me feel like i was asking for too much just for wanting reassurance. disappearing when things got hard instead of communicating. making promises he couldn't keep. giving me attention only when it was convenient for him. i don't think he wanted to hurt me, but love shouldn't leave someone feeling confused, unwanted, or hard to love all the time.