i promise, this year, i will find myself again. the version of me that smiled so hard, laughed so loud, and did not feel heavy all the time. i will stop surviving and start living. i will choose happiness. my smile will no longer be fake just to hide the pain. one day, it will be real again. the spark in my eyes will come back. i will rest when i am tired, heal from what hurt me, and become the person i know i am meant to be. this year, i choose me.