if i was mad, i would've argued. but this time, i was hurt, so i decided to let everything go. this time, i was not angry. i was just deeply hurt. and when you are really hurt, sometimes you don't even have the energy to fight anymore. you just get quiet. you stop explaining. you stop begging to be understood. that is what happened to me. i got tired of carrying the pain and acting like i was okay. so i let it go. not because it didn't matter, but because it actually mattered too much. and letting go felt easier than hurting like that anymore.