I have been thinking about a moment from yesterday I’m not proud of. Not pretty. Not spiritual. Not evolved. Just human, messy, reactive. Angry. Jealous. Vindictive. I honestly scared myself. I’m exhausted. Today I felt the old scripts lining up—over-apologize, shrink, fawn, disappear, punish myself for it. Numb it out. Call it proof that I’m damaged beyond repair. Not today. Today I’m going down the more difficult path. I’m looking directly at what I did without flinching—and without turning it into a shame spiral. I’m taking responsibility without abandoning myself in the process. I’m making promises I actually intend to keep. Quiet ones. Real ones. No performance. No self-flagellation. Just boundaries—with myself. Accountability—with teeth. I don’t need to stay the version of me that made that choice. I don’t need to drag her into tomorrow like dead weight. “You're under no obligation to be the same person you were 5 minutes ago.” — Alan Watts I can learn. Adjust. Move different. Five minutes ago me did what she knew. This version of me knows more. And I’m going to act like it.