My toxic trait is that I crave love, but I struggle to fully receive it. Because growing up, love wasn't something that was freely given - it had to be earned. I had to be quiet to be loved. I had to behave to be noticed. I had to achieve to feel worthy. Love was conditional - based on what I could do, not who I was. So now, as an adult, when someone tries to love me without conditions, I hesitate. I question their intentions. I pull away. I wonder what they'll want in return. It's not because I don't want love - I do, more than anything - but because my heart still remembers the version of love that hurt. I'm unlearning the belief that I have to earn love. I'm learning that love doesn't have to come with pain, performance, or perfection. That the right people won't make me prove my worth - they I remind me I already haveit. Healing means allowing myself to be loved cöfor who I am, not for how much I give, fix, or endure. And that's a journey I'm still on.