I've reached a point in my life where every time I've tried to share my joy, good things that happen in my life or things that make me happy, I've been ignored, talked over or dismissed, pawned off as weird. And now I just don't care. It's been this way now for 30 years and I just don't care anymore. I don't share anymore. I don't tell anyone. I validate myself and keep it to myself because when I do share that stuff and it gets dismissed or talked over it hurts. So it's best to just keep it to myself so the joy stays alive.