i lost my spark. i used to laugh so easily, find joy in little things, dream about brighter days, and believe life would get better. now everything feels heavy, even the things i once loved. i smile when i have to, but deep inside, i feel tired. i keep my pain to myself, afraid no one will understand. so i stay quiet and pretend, even when my heart feels exhausted. i miss the person i used to be, the one who smiled without forcing it. more than anything, i want peace, and to finally feel like myself again.